Hi, it’s 01.00am right now. I’m laying in my bed with this white laptop and do nothing. I’m not in a good mood for sleep right now and yeah still searching for an activity. What actually the 19th girls do in this time? Not, not in your west country. I mean in the east. I can’t expect what will I do if I live in your super independent lifestyle. Okay it’s not independent like that, let’s call that free lifestyle.

Yeah, it’s 1.15am now. Holiday. Such a great word isn’t it? Of course it is. Can you imagine what we can do in holiday? Something extraordinary, having fun, go to many good place. Yeah, I wish I can do that. But, don’t worry. I have a lot of list to do. Do you ask me why I’m doing this useless thing? I know you have a perfect answer for me.

Lalalaaa~ 01.21am. Hmm is it okay for me to tell you something? I don’t know when it comes to me. I don’t know why me. I don’t know why I must know. Different user. Do you know what it is mean? No, everything is alright. I’m fine, healthy beauty lady. Haha I’m lying.

01.26am. Oh I forgot to tell you. Today is the day of our Pancasila, 1st June. What’s special for this day? Umm, I can’t say anything. it is like another day for me. Maybe something wrong with me, ya I know that since a long time ago. No one can help me right now and go on.

01.37am. Let’s make it clear now. Finally I’m sleepy and bye.

PS: You know? Ana uhibbuka fillah, please take care.

Sometimes I need a hug.

A hug that tells, “Everything is alright.”

A hug that tells, “I’m with you”

A hug that tells, “I’m beside you.”

A hug that tells, “We will pass this together.”

A hug that tells, “You can do it.”

A hug that tells, “You are strong enough to be everything.”

A hug that tells, “I care.”

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